Number 6 got cut off! :( at the very bottom, it said “you are worthy” (bc i’m a cliche lil shit)
nobody’s going to read this but
Also: I take these things very seriously, as simple as they seem. No matter what, try as hard as you can — always — to think positive. If your family fucks you up or you get dumped or got rejected from lit mags or you can’t seem to make your bed in the morning, let alone get out of it, just first off remember that a lot of people out there are proud of anybody and everybody who is going through a struggle, for still being here. If you can’t get out of bed, close your eyes and just try to sleep for another five minutes. Think of how warm your bed is, or how soft or how firm. If you got laid off, look at the sky. Look at the clear blue and the sun, clear your head for a second and try to feel the sunshine & the warm, orange hues outside of your eyelids and smile a bit. Smile at every stranger you see when you’re out of the house. Even if it’s hard, try to smile at whoever messed up on you. For me, I think of sleep when I’m able to get it (the feeling of hair in front of my face and no light peeping in and how I can feel all my fingers not moving but curled around the tip of my comfortable); I think of how the trees are still always beautiful no matter what season in my backyard and my neighbor’s backyard, and I look at the trees and the angle of the leaves and how sunshine lands on them so perfectly; I look up at the clouds with a good posture, trying to forget everything else around me, only seeing the white & the gray; I think of my chickens, how I even have actual live chickens who love me walking and bathing and sleeping around my backyard in the daytime, etc. It sounds pretty fucking stupid, and I used to think, “what’s the point of even trying to be positive when i do sometimes but the other things just overwhelm it?”
but i’d keep doing it, and i’d realize i just have to stop trying to dwell further in anything negative, and piece by piece, i’d try to remove as much negativity as i could from my life. there is always a chunk of negativity, no matter what - it could be your family or a job that you need for a decent income or anything, but i just alwaysalways try to keep staying positive. i would do things that would actually make my body better, that would make me know and feel it would be healthier. i drink at least 4 16 fl oz bottles of water everyday (i refill them, haha). i pee a lot. i remind myself to add more greens on my plate, even though i already like greens and eat a lot. i stretch, even if my splits hurt and i lost all my splits except for one side. i floss my teeth. i do simple yoga. i try to go outside as much as i can. i try to exercise. i write lists. i don’t force myself to write or put myself under writing pressure to create something magical or breathtaking or beautiful. i do lists now, gentle reminders that i need to do. (& i love the feeling when i cross things off, even if mentally.) i draw stupid, silly things. i do lists like this.
U KNOW I KNOW NOBODY IS GOING TO READ THIS, but it helped me. i am constantly reminding myself to learn and accept and let go. be positive. i am positive. i am glowing with good vibes and i’m crazily happy.
thank you v much i appreciate all of you for existing even though u didnt read this and how i only have a speck of followers. but its ok.
i love u guys have a nice day this caption was sorta awk sorry